I am trying real hard to control my anxiety right now but I have been unsuccessful. I literally would like to curl up in a ball, shut out the world, close my eyes and drift off to a land where I will no longer experience this – where I will never have to feel like this again. I feel like the only thing I have been successful at lately has been shutting people out of my life and not adequately expressing myself.
This “being strong” stuff is exhausting. This “public me” stuff is exhausting. I am exhausted.