3:00 A.M. and wide awake – I guess I spoke too soon. Then again I feel asleep last night way too early and when I awoke not to long ago I just had too much on my mind to go back to sleep. Today is my day with Buddy so I think I am not going to force the sleep issue and just go with the flow. The only thing I would like is if the rest of the world was open 24 hours a day so just maybe I could get something accomplished this early in the morning.
This coffee taste unbelievably delicious.
So – what my mind is going crazy thinking about is a call I received from the Chief yesterday – with a job offer. Though ultimately the job would still be with the Chief – I wouldn’t be reporting to him as I have in the past and the job is considered part-time at 20 hours a week. I wouldn’t even be located in the same building as him. He said it is pretty flexible and he thinks I would be great at it. I have an informal interview off site tomorrow with the woman I would be reporting to. I know her – I know her well from my years with the Chief and we are going to talk over some of the details.
There are several things that are weighing heavy on my mind.
I don’t think I ever mentioned this here but the Chief and SEH are friends – close friends though I firmly believe the Chief has absolutely no idea of my relationship with SEH. They both know about my health – SEH more than the Chief. I know that SEH is concerned about how long I will be able to survive without an income and both also know that the stress and demand that was put on me by my other job with the Chief was taking its toll on my mind and body. I believe that by offering me this job – knowing it is half the time or less, than I worked before – knowing it is less stressful and very flexible – that is it their way of taking care of me. Their way of showing me their friendship – their support. Makes me wonder if they have put their heads together somehow and well – came up with this.
I wasn’t planning on even starting to look for a job this soon and I wasn’t too concerned about how long I could go without a salary. Damn I don’t even know how long I will be around. The salary is way more than I would have expected – again – I think their way of taking care of me. I also know this might be SEH’s way of keeping me around – so to speak. As I have said in a previous post this is the first time in a long time I can go and / or do anything I want – even move – possibly out of state. At the end of the conversation the Chief says “Hey, no harm in meeting with her and if you like what she says we go through the motions, get a drug test and we work up a letter of agreement.” SAY WHAT…………drug test?!?
HOLY FUCK! I never even thought of that. Ten years ago – over ten years ago – when I first started working for the Chief drug testing wasn’t mandatory. There is no way I would pass a drug test today! Though the doctor would provide me with a letter for what drugs are prescribed there is no way I can account for the ones that aren’t. OH FUCK.
So – what do I do? I will have the meeting tomorrow with this person – I will listen to what she has to say – but I have no idea what the fuck I will do. DRUG TEST………………..HOLY FUCK……………….did I say that already.
One of the great things about this is – even though I planned on continuing my work with Buddy – it was something that was started when I was working for the Chief. He is big on volunteering – on his dime – he encouraged all his employees to volunteer somehow – be it working with kids in schools, on a Big Brother / Big Sister type thing or in my case with Buddy.
Oh geez – what to do – what to do.