It’s a cloudy, cold, chance of snow type day and as always I am in my usual position – still in my pjs – sipping on a seltzer water and looking for motivation. I have none. It is almost noon on a Saturday and I haven’t done a productive thing since I got out of bed at 7:30 this morning. Lately I have been feeling like I am just existing not living and I don’t like that feeling. I need to do something that makes me feel like I am living.
Like my walking sticks that sit in various stages of dress as I refer to it – I too feel like I am in various states of dress. I want to go out but the cold is getting to me. I want to stick my face in the sun but it is cloudy. I want to paint but my wrist are killing me. I think you get the picture.
I guess you could say I am not myself. Nope – not feeling like myself at all. I need another attitude adjustment. Oh fucking well…………………..what’s a gal to do.